Malam Jumaat (:

salam peeps.
today's the 6th day of Ramadhan
and tinggal 23 days lagi kan raya...
hehehe...
tapi aku baru sehari puasa.

hari ni aku inda sekolah.
i've to accompany my mum to bring Naufal to the clinic.
so,dirumah sajalah ku.

What happened d clinic?*recall dulu*
okay,basically biasa pulang saja.
bg card,duduk,tunggu kena panggil,jumpa doctor and ambil ubat.
ah iatah,yang tempat ambil ubat tu kan...
aku suka liat...
his look's way too alim and yet,ia inda jadi imam pun. He choose to jadi apa namanya ni kerja tempat ambil ubat ah???*blank*

malam jumaat aku dirumah saja.
watch tv...
hmph...
exam inda lagi batah tapi masih main-main.
malas study :-(
mcmana kan dapat merit ni lai??

"bulan Ramadhan bulan Kemaafan."

let me feel the love...

salam semua..
hari ni ok saja...
i'll make it brief lah cerita ku ni..

Tadi geography sir Fletcher aher datang...
ia lupa hari ni hari rabu. ia fikir hari khamis.
Haha...
Err,then tadi bhs melayu...
Cgu Suhaili ckp arahku...
i'm his next target after Hanim yang jadi best student dlm bhs melayu nanti..
Mudah-mudahan saja lah cigu...
Doakan saja kami yang terbaik...

P.S tadi aku mcm biasa...
revising,buat homework and baca magazine sikit...
G.P test data response ah...
nada ku tejawap.Blank ku...
SOC tadi ok lah...Tambah faham...

So,hopefully i'll get through and dpt merit...

"ya ALLAH...kabulkan permintaanku"

P/S : i think i love him.

kenapa sekarang baru nampak?

buta kah aku selama ni?
tadi baru tah ku realise,rupanya...
he's just too old for me...
too mature...
HAHAH...
selama ani dimana mataku ah??

He once said, cinta tu buta...
and now baru ku agree,
baru ku faham...
but its okay,i can sincerely accept him though...
hehehe...

tadi naufal ku sakit perut...
he cried sampai ia keluarkan 'emas' dari lombongnya...
kesian babyku...
after urut2 his tummy baru tah dapat ia tidur...
nyaman tidurnya tadi...

ni baru ku balik dari masjid,
edar kami tadi sediakan makanan,etc.
and there,i saw him...
Err...okay lah...
nampak that he's happy
but still i feel that ia inda happy...
i don't know lah...
malas ingau lagi...

tadi at school okay lah...
extra class pun okay jua...
L6 combine dgn U6,so i get to senyum2 back to my exmates...
dorang was so worried coz their A lvl exam's coming...
Mine pun jua,AS ah...
aku mau dapat A...
tapi i'm not sure yet...
inda ku yakin :'(

ya Allah...
tolonglah hambamu yang kerdil ini...

am i happy?

heyya people...
i got nothing kan dibuat hari ni,
so i'd like to cerita lah sikit kisah hari ni...

happy kah ku hari ni ah?
err,if ckp mcm biasa...
inda jua...happy jua ku sikit...hehehe..

okay,the story basically happened tadi...
while waiting for my mum,
i saw this guy...emm,,
inda berapa nampak his face pulang...
ia pakai topi haji ah...
and what makes my heart beranti skajap was seeing his tangan...
bisai bah tangannya,ia hold the car steering tu tah...
uhh,i wish to hold his hand...slip my fingers into his...
jalan sama2 dipantai...
*waa...jauhnya angan2*
and hey! i dont know if i fantasize skajap or reality that he's smiling at me...Toink!!!
To be honest man,this is my first time after kegersangan cari next target to be fall in love with...
aiyaa...Mihirnya aku...

and tadi subuh i did dream this weird tapi siuk mimpi...
aku inda nampak muka lelaki ni but i hold his hand...
i hugged him kuat-kuat,
cakap arahnya "now i've realised how much i love u"
HAHA...WTF!!
tapi siuk,baik jua lust tu inda timbul...
weeweeweewee...

Mmm...geography's the most siuk class to attend...
though kami inda close,aku sendiri inda berapa kana kawan but i enjoyed the class.
And aku suka liat si Aiman make fun of his friends and sir Fletcher...
damn hillarious...!!
Hahah...And si roy pun cali jua mukanya...
And yeah,my groupmate...sidah...
ia banyak cakap tapi funny brabis...
Banyak clowns dlm class kami...

Okey,gtg.Esok extra Sociology,test GP,..
AAaAaAahHhHh...!!!!!!

GP test tomorrow...ARRGGHH!!!

evening...
hmph...so sad,hari ni aku 'bocor' tah jua and so,
i can't puasa and terawih and also tadarus...
isk..isk..isk...;(

erm,tadi kami baru potong our baju raya...
heheh...i've to go diet from now on...
takut sempit the baju...
huhuh...
hopefully lawa lah nanti...
*angan-angan* hehehe...

Okay now,i'm at nini's house...
wasting time...
tadi i joined them sungkai.
their menu was bubur kacang and dessert...
nyaman sekali...
and again,MESTI control makan...
argh!!

so,tomorrow sekolah...
starts at 745 (mcm biasa) ends at 1230...
BLK1 esk i'll go to the library and loan that new book!!!
i need that for the sake of my AS exam!
BLK2 i'm having my GP class and mr.Frank will be giving us essay test,to examine how lame and rubish our essay is. Hahah.
BLK3 sociology with ms.Rozi...ni relax saja ni...
BLK4 geography,i think new topic kali ni...Settlement...
BLK5 bhs melayu with cgu Suhaili,the one and only cgu who loves to flirt young men. (err???)

uhuh...mesti kerja kuat ni...
1.DIET
2.STUDY

" i know i can :) "

on & off

back again...
for how long ah??
hmm...

Today's the 2nd of Ramadhan and as expected,
ramai datang terawih.
However,celebration this year wasn't that 'live' as to compare dgn previous years punya...
i don't know why...
was it my own self-thinking or semua pun dapat rasa jua?...

Next,
2009 is a bad year for me...
banyak sial thing happened to me,OCCASIONALLY...
*i fucked up my life...twice...by hating my ex tapi inda dapat and seeing my closest friend kahwin (happy for him but at the same time,sedih jua)
*makin basar,mcm2 tia dpintanya perasaan+hati ni...hari2 kan minta belai...(HAHA) and so,i have to jaga my hati dgn banyak2 selawat+zikir2
*my family...if diikutkan hati,mungkin family relation kami semakin tegang...
harap2 inda...
W/pun its a bad year,
ALLAH tu adil kan...
2009...membuka ruang akademikku...
Well so far,aku okay with my study...
And starting now,i've to work harder...AS exam inda lagi lama...
i'll try to get A lah for geography...
hehehe...payah tu yo...
sociology pun...mesti A jua...
and if dapat,GP jua...B kah saja...

Mama once said,"tanamkan cita-cita dihati and jangan fikir yang lain,insyaAllah dapat jua tu nanti."
i really really really want to get that scholarship!! :'(

final exam's coming...
after raya kami exam...
and after final exam,aku sit my AS...
uhh....
honestly,inda ku sabar ni kan exam...
kan tau my result and get promoted untuk upper6 next year...
tapi...when tani inda sabar,we'll get nothing but rugi...(i learn this from his experience)

banyak2 berdoa ramadhan ani...
semua pintu syurga dibuka...
semua doa dikabulkan...
huhuhuhuh...

Oh yeah,
1 more thing...
i was not allowed to date with someone since mama did her responsibility,searching the perfect one for me...
i just hope...mama tau ciri2 yang ku cari...
this heart ache so much...
takut-takut aku bukan yang dicarinya...
tapi i'll try to be isteri yang best...
susah ni woo...
about 5-6 years lagi...
inda lagi lama tu...

LOVE

to be honest, i'm nothing without you...
hari-hari yang dilalui kosong saja...
i miss your jokes...
i miss everything from you...
hari-hari,bangun tidur selalu ku tanya2...
Will u be alright?
Can she treat u well?
Will she loves you like i do?
Can u both be happy?

it is hard to let you go...
i know,i have to move on...
setiap kaki ku melangkah,setiap kali tu jua i'll look back...
searching for you...
and seperti selalu,ur not there...
sedih kan...

______________________
When ur with someone,this heart turns black...
niat hati kan marah that girl tapi diri sedar,
kalau bukan salahme,kalau me layan you macam ia layan you,
me indakan makan hati cani ni kan...
i still love you...



__________________________
online msn pun nda lagi siuk...
asal buka msn, baby nada online...
where are you?
sudah jumpa another 'honey' ka?...
i miss you so bad;'(



________________________
*diam*
...............................
There's nothing to say...
Cakap banyak pun can't bring him back...


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perempuan fitrahnya bersifat pemalu & put things to their heart.
cinta sejati perempuan payah kan nampak, i have to agree with this coz ni pun aku alami sendiri.
so guys,when seorang perempuan treat u well,she's the one yang kamu cari.
pilih yang zahiriah cantik pun inda beguna if batin nya nda pernah mengagungkan seorang lelaki yang dicintainya. :)

kalau hati sudah berkata "yes!she's the one..." don't let her go,do whatever it takes...
kalau sudah jodoh,yang dikejar pun indakan lari coz dihatinya pun sudah mengatakan "he's the one"
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hello bloggers...
it's been a while since i've posted my daily news...
So,this whole 2 weeks of school holiday i was just nannie-ing my lil sweet nephew plus i did go KNK...
My family and I went to Huaho Petani Mall (Tutong), Bkt Tempayan Pisang (near my house), Bkt Mentiri, Mentiri Golf Club and tadi we went to Wong Kadir at Labi,KB.

Ni pun baru balik dari KB,we're tired man...Lucky the cuti is extended till 6 July...
H1N1's cases rose day by day...And sure,the mentris worried..So they decided to bagi the students cuti...Pity to the teachers,they've to start their 'teaching' tomorrow...Huhuhu...

Highlight: Wong Kadir.
Huhuh...Tadi was totally fun yet tiring.
Wong means Wasai,so Wasai Kadir lah nama melayunya...Hehe..

i was so happy but frustrated.the story goes like this,tadi i manage to mandi under the waterfall which is basically 'restricted' to women...
Not that it is haram or etc,its just that jarang ada bini2 mandi bawah the waterfall...
The water's not shallow and as i'm a geography student,i knew that there'll be a plunge pool that makes the wasai DEEP...

Granting the chances given,with my mother's bless aku pun benanang lah ke tempat DEEP tu and hey man,payah gila bernafas...
Aku pun kuatkan semangat ketempat waterfall tu...Alhamdulillah sampai jua...
And semua yang ada sana,my mum,aunts,cousins were all happy and blessed including other guys jua sana...Little did they know i was struggling with the harsh water currents...HAHAHAHA...
Mencabar brabis...

Okay,time aku gasping for more oxygen...And ambil energy...Semua ready kan 'selamatkan' aku incase aku inda tahan lagi...
Lama ku 'chillax' di sana...About 15-20mins kali...Mama takut and suruh my uncle bagi pelampong...
So,my unc pun beranang lah and bagi the pelampong...Actually without the help of my unc i can still ke shore pulang...
Iatah masa my unc trying to save me,ia pun kan lemas jua...And thus makes my aunt (his wife) worry...Cian eh..And i felt guilty for that...='(

masa on the way balik lah along and mama cerita pasal how brave i am kan ke air terjun tu...
I told them i need to set strategies before going back to the shore but then my along cakap inda bulih coz the longer u're under the waterfall the harder u'll breath...So okay,baru ku faham napa durang semua takut...
Yet i'm happy jua coz aku dapat cabar my own courageness...Huhuhuh...
Alhamdulillah berkat pertolongan Allah,akhirnya semua berjalan lancar and we're all pulang dgn selamat... :)

END OF THE HIGHLIGHTED STORY.

So,n0w...Aku resting saja..And i think tomorrow i'll start revising...Hahaha..
Homeworks pun masih banyak lagi alum buat...3 lagi...

2 days ahead (exclude Thursday)

ya...ba...da...ba...duu!!!
2nd term holiday's coming...
Tak sabar aku...huhuhu...
so,my current plan for this upcoming holiday is basically STUDYING!!...
Other activities,maybe...Muscle-fitting(jogging,swimming,cleaning campaign)
MAYBE lah saja tu...

After 2nd term holiday, a week after 3rd term...We're having 2nd assesment..
Lots and lots and lots to READ!!
So this cuti,like Ms.Rozi said we have to asah our skill of writing,asah our mind yang tumpul tu and more!

And again,i have to be prepared for my AS war!!
it aint easy if inda study!
i don't want to sit for the same paper again thrice!! Hohoho...

Hopefully i'll get through this...
Amin...Amin...Amin...='(

so,yeah! VICTORY!!...

officially sick x(

Oh God! hectic week makes me sick...
i am now suffering the minor H1N1's symptoms. i'm on flu,dizziness, loss appetite and yeah, i'm poorly weak!
i apologize for the late update.

Well today,nothing much happen after the whole week i was busy studying,doing massive homeworks,bla..bla..bla..
huhh...
hari ni aku luangkan masa dirumah saja,rehatkan diri...Hibernate untuk esok...
Bloody m0nday,just hope everything would be smoothly fine.

urm,just wanna share u guys a story which basically boring...coz it just happened dalam mimpi,semalam.
*just skip this part,if you want*

okay, ceritanya cani...dalam my dream ni kan...
my ex contact me balik and he told me he want me back. he did give me this lovely letter,expressing his feelings...how he missed me so much,and so on..
shorten the story, at that time i wanted to make things up BUT suddenly, this friend of mine whose about to get married appear on my mind. I was confused... And what happen after that, aku muntah... Hahaha.
Funny eh.
That was my dream.

And tadi, berapa lama sudah inda jumpa this 'friend' ani ah...tiba2 terjumpa tah jua...
What was that?!
COINCIDENCE??
After mimpi ia,terjumpa lagi ia??
Err...
i'll just leave that behind.
Malaskan fikir,worthless. (:

okay,now focus on tomorrow.
esok PS,i'll be checking my geo hw and buat some revision.
GP kami learn new topic 'mass media',
SOC ms.Rozi's back...Nda tau buat apa kami...
GEO erm n0t sure yet buat apa...
BM pun i don't know.
Hahah.

So,maybe ni saja. OFF YOU GO!!

"coincidence OR destiny??"

Sajakku

okay,aku baru siap buat my own sajak. My teacher mau kami karang sajak or pantun kan dibentangkan esuk.
So,aku buat sajak lah. i hope everyone nanti will 'wow' it.

Here it is...*nervous*

'kebahagiaan Mama di bulan Oktober'


22 Oktober 1990,
lahirlah dia ke dunia,
tangisannya kebahagiaan semua,
dia dirangkul erat; dikucup,
mama tersenyum;tangisan mengalir tanda kesyukuran,
Terima Kasih Tuhan!

22 Oktober 1993; 3 tahun sudah,
dia sudah petah berkata,bermanja;
"mama...mama..."
setiap keinginan dipenuhi,
cinta rohani dan material tidak puput diberi,

22 Oktober 1990,
dia berusia 5 tahun;mengenal erti ABC,123,
dia mula mengenal erti kawan,
dia yang alpa mula mengenal erti kebebasan,
bebas bermain seperti rama-rama; bebas berlari; bebas bergalut

22 Oktober 2000,
kebebasan diberi digunakan sepenuhnya,
dia asyik dikeliling teman dan keseronokkan palsu,
keramahan dan kasih sayang mama dijadikan tugu,
dilupakan dan dibiarkan termanggu

22 Oktober 2007,
sesalan mula bergelumung disudut hati,
mama pernah bilang 'ikut hati mati,ikut rasa binasa',
dia kini mula mengerti,
kebebasan dicari takkan terhenti,
namun mama tetap disisi,menjadi tugu kekuatan dihati,

22 Oktober 2009,
aku berganjak ke usia dewasa,
akan ku bentang rasa cintaku;berbahagialah mama,
dihari itu nanti akan ku peluk mama seeratnya,
Terima Kasih Buat Semuanya,Mama!

Holy Friday.

today's friday.

Hari ni just jaga my bebehfruit...shopal gemuk...
He's baru 2months tapi if tani liat he's like 4months...
Kambang lagi tu...Kan becerita saja...
Since i don't talk too much kan iatah opal selalu cry...Hehehe.

Erm malam, i went to dikir...It was fun...Triak2...Spit my lungs out...Hahah.
Boring wah before ni,so apa lagi...Release stress dsana lah...
Kami dikir skajap sja tadi...So,pulangan fulus pun ok ok aja...

Apa lagi ah, today nothing much kan diceritakan...
Tidur memanjang,jaga opal,mlm jaga nini...

So,maybe ni saja lah.
Gtg.

"talk is cheap BUT i did love you...Still...Always..."
:)

addicted to you

Hey,i'm here again... (:

umm..Hari ni boring...Nda ku tau kan buat apa...

Okay, tadi sociology...Still methods of research, we're asked to set up a structured questionnaire...And kami pilih pasal 'relationships & marriage'
it was Umi's idea pulang...Mau buat pasal relationships...And aku ikut lah saja...
Siuk2 lah questions kami...Hehehe...

Geography...Over/under/optimum population...

Bhs melayu blajar pasal novel sebelum perang

gp still on our project...Saturday presentation...
And ps tidur... :(

Hmph...My heart's sakit...
I really don't know kenapa...
So sad... ='(

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wraping my day

uhuh...physically tired...
whats the time now?
0018hr??Wow... Eh,28th may sudah ni...

*flashing back*
yesterday,payday...
long queue kaliah every ATMs...
they were all smiling...
but then duit tu skajap saja d wallet tu...

kami makan d restaurant Chola,nice...
baru first time sana,so a lil bit sakai... i met Hafsah sana.She's with her sister...Makan apakah durang,i dnt knw...
For mine, i ordered chips&nuggets,roti kosong and also carrot juice...
Hehehe...Penafsuan banar...Hahahah..

And i hadnt enough rest kan tu,sampai saja rumah my aunt sampai and i have to rush...
So,i pampered myself masa jaga nini lah...4hours ah...
Usually inda ku tdur pulang tapi ani... AMPAR wah... Huhuhu

ayte, got to go...
Mau bobo...


"there's an empty place in my heart and baby, without you it'll just break apart.."

to bend and not to break

i'm sitting on school's 3rd floor toilet bowl now...
manufacturing my own chocolate cookies...
hahah yuck...
"batah kan kuar..."

em okay,tadi buat apa ah...
geography's assesment final mark is out and yes,i got a C.Syukur Alhamdulillah...
I've scanned a little saja on the paper and so far,i can only see 3 passes, 2 people got C and a person gotten E. Well others,sorry to say...They've got the 'U'niversity...
Jgn putus asa guys...
Put more effort on it...

uhh too much to do on the other subject, my sociology dE'am0r...
i don't really understand much of the methods of research...
How to answer the question,which is relevant,irrelevant,which has to be memorise,etc...
need to study more...and more...and more...

tadi GP class,Muna's absent...Good luck Muna on your Maths exam...
kami tadi just relax2 saja,cerita2...And Amal asked me about 'relationships'...Unfortunately i really can't say anything about that...Totally blank...
hey guys...Not all teenagers got sweet hetreosexual relationship kaliah...So do i...
BUT i'm happy...(its a lie)

honestly, i don't want u to go away from my life. I hate to be left alone... Just go skajap saja and later on, come back to me... No matter how long will it takes, i'm always here waiting for you... Perhaps if nothing's changed lah... :)
don't end this relationship...don't break it...

once my baby, always my baby

hmm...how sweet the heading is... (:
i just love it...
it reminds me of someone whose about to desert me away from his life...
at first,i do really mind for how easy he is in generalising his decisions but then... after i 'verstehen' myself into his, maybe one day i'll understand...
it's okay,baby...
tho' it really hurts but i know u're hurt too...

Okay, for the first time during my schooldays, i was crying...
can't stand the situation i'm facing now...
this is just too much...
i got no one to hang on with...to hold on...to cry to...
huhuhu...
But hey,i've got to be strong...
World's sucks...
And i dont want to be suckers...

err...
this afternoon,i just spent my time at the school library...
studying...revising...
hmph...
and hey,tadi Ms.Farah totally insane...she'd gone mad after what wafy (i dont know the person's exact name) kan manipulate her but Ms.Farah handal,she's out of the 'false consciousness' and apa lagi...jadi lah 'Ms.Farah's Rebelution'...
Kami lagi tadi ciput ganya semangat kan study...Semua tired, and this including me...Huhuhu...
Class dismissed early,later on some of my colleges cakap Ms.Farah selalu nangis after ia marah or stress...
Hey,i dont know and its normal jua bah...
Ms.Farah's nice...Well-motivated tutor...
Her handouts way too good compare to my ex tutor punya notes (mention no name)

Apa lagi...
Today banyak students absent.They sat for Eng O lvl exam.Hows the paper guys?Kacang?
Hope dapat best result lah ah...

Alright, gotta go now...

"ain't success without failure"

aluuhaa...

Hey people...
I'm here again...
mcm chipsmore,ilang2 saja...

Emm what to tell ah...
maybe as a warming up, i'll tell you pasal my school life lah which obviously dull and boring but on the other hand, my academic performance dramatically increased...

i've just finished my first assesment...And here are my results...
SOCIOLOGY = A,
GENERAL PAPER = A,
GEOGRAPHY = C,
BHS MELAYU = *cg.Suhaili havent finish marking,batah wah!!*

okay, if last year punya first assesment apa ku dapat nah...
SOCIOLOGY = E
ENG. O'Level = D
GEOGRAPHY = D kali. Inda ingat
BHS. MELAYU = C

huge changes kan...
em,i'm proud of myself pulang...
Syukur Alhamdulillah that i repeat, atleast i can undo my mistakes and improved.

So yah, maybe thats all for now.

I love my family. (:

Apa ni kan...

2009...

hahah
buruk my blog ni, baru tah kan update,
well busy wah lately, i have to do lots and lots of 'taking care-ing' my nini sama my cousins...
last month my granddad died..*sobsob*

what else ah...
oww i guess i'll simpan pictures my sister's wedding last december lah,
though it was not fun - banyak uncles ikut campur but Alhamdulillah lah, janji selesai...
*aku kawin bila ah..sama sapa ahh...* hahaha

oh yah, i haven't started my school yet since i am repeating my lower6 dis year (failed due to my attandence bahhh...)
so aku just relax - tidur makan di rumah nini hamba lah.
nothing else's to do..
borriiinggg laaaa....
nda sabar kan skulah hehehehehehe
tapi sudah skulah tu mals2 tia, mbari malas wah ehh..pemalas... *apakan!!!*

ciow.
hanie