Malam Jumaat (:

salam peeps.
today's the 6th day of Ramadhan
and tinggal 23 days lagi kan raya...
hehehe...
tapi aku baru sehari puasa.

hari ni aku inda sekolah.
i've to accompany my mum to bring Naufal to the clinic.
so,dirumah sajalah ku.

What happened d clinic?*recall dulu*
okay,basically biasa pulang saja.
bg card,duduk,tunggu kena panggil,jumpa doctor and ambil ubat.
ah iatah,yang tempat ambil ubat tu kan...
aku suka liat...
his look's way too alim and yet,ia inda jadi imam pun. He choose to jadi apa namanya ni kerja tempat ambil ubat ah???*blank*

malam jumaat aku dirumah saja.
watch tv...
hmph...
exam inda lagi batah tapi masih main-main.
malas study :-(
mcmana kan dapat merit ni lai??

"bulan Ramadhan bulan Kemaafan."

let me feel the love...

salam semua..
hari ni ok saja...
i'll make it brief lah cerita ku ni..

Tadi geography sir Fletcher aher datang...
ia lupa hari ni hari rabu. ia fikir hari khamis.
Haha...
Err,then tadi bhs melayu...
Cgu Suhaili ckp arahku...
i'm his next target after Hanim yang jadi best student dlm bhs melayu nanti..
Mudah-mudahan saja lah cigu...
Doakan saja kami yang terbaik...

P.S tadi aku mcm biasa...
revising,buat homework and baca magazine sikit...
G.P test data response ah...
nada ku tejawap.Blank ku...
SOC tadi ok lah...Tambah faham...

So,hopefully i'll get through and dpt merit...

"ya ALLAH...kabulkan permintaanku"

P/S : i think i love him.

kenapa sekarang baru nampak?

buta kah aku selama ni?
tadi baru tah ku realise,rupanya...
he's just too old for me...
too mature...
HAHAH...
selama ani dimana mataku ah??

He once said, cinta tu buta...
and now baru ku agree,
baru ku faham...
but its okay,i can sincerely accept him though...
hehehe...

tadi naufal ku sakit perut...
he cried sampai ia keluarkan 'emas' dari lombongnya...
kesian babyku...
after urut2 his tummy baru tah dapat ia tidur...
nyaman tidurnya tadi...

ni baru ku balik dari masjid,
edar kami tadi sediakan makanan,etc.
and there,i saw him...
Err...okay lah...
nampak that he's happy
but still i feel that ia inda happy...
i don't know lah...
malas ingau lagi...

tadi at school okay lah...
extra class pun okay jua...
L6 combine dgn U6,so i get to senyum2 back to my exmates...
dorang was so worried coz their A lvl exam's coming...
Mine pun jua,AS ah...
aku mau dapat A...
tapi i'm not sure yet...
inda ku yakin :'(

ya Allah...
tolonglah hambamu yang kerdil ini...

am i happy?

heyya people...
i got nothing kan dibuat hari ni,
so i'd like to cerita lah sikit kisah hari ni...

happy kah ku hari ni ah?
err,if ckp mcm biasa...
inda jua...happy jua ku sikit...hehehe..

okay,the story basically happened tadi...
while waiting for my mum,
i saw this guy...emm,,
inda berapa nampak his face pulang...
ia pakai topi haji ah...
and what makes my heart beranti skajap was seeing his tangan...
bisai bah tangannya,ia hold the car steering tu tah...
uhh,i wish to hold his hand...slip my fingers into his...
jalan sama2 dipantai...
*waa...jauhnya angan2*
and hey! i dont know if i fantasize skajap or reality that he's smiling at me...Toink!!!
To be honest man,this is my first time after kegersangan cari next target to be fall in love with...
aiyaa...Mihirnya aku...

and tadi subuh i did dream this weird tapi siuk mimpi...
aku inda nampak muka lelaki ni but i hold his hand...
i hugged him kuat-kuat,
cakap arahnya "now i've realised how much i love u"
HAHA...WTF!!
tapi siuk,baik jua lust tu inda timbul...
weeweeweewee...

Mmm...geography's the most siuk class to attend...
though kami inda close,aku sendiri inda berapa kana kawan but i enjoyed the class.
And aku suka liat si Aiman make fun of his friends and sir Fletcher...
damn hillarious...!!
Hahah...And si roy pun cali jua mukanya...
And yeah,my groupmate...sidah...
ia banyak cakap tapi funny brabis...
Banyak clowns dlm class kami...

Okey,gtg.Esok extra Sociology,test GP,..
AAaAaAahHhHh...!!!!!!

GP test tomorrow...ARRGGHH!!!

evening...
hmph...so sad,hari ni aku 'bocor' tah jua and so,
i can't puasa and terawih and also tadarus...
isk..isk..isk...;(

erm,tadi kami baru potong our baju raya...
heheh...i've to go diet from now on...
takut sempit the baju...
huhuh...
hopefully lawa lah nanti...
*angan-angan* hehehe...

Okay now,i'm at nini's house...
wasting time...
tadi i joined them sungkai.
their menu was bubur kacang and dessert...
nyaman sekali...
and again,MESTI control makan...
argh!!

so,tomorrow sekolah...
starts at 745 (mcm biasa) ends at 1230...
BLK1 esk i'll go to the library and loan that new book!!!
i need that for the sake of my AS exam!
BLK2 i'm having my GP class and mr.Frank will be giving us essay test,to examine how lame and rubish our essay is. Hahah.
BLK3 sociology with ms.Rozi...ni relax saja ni...
BLK4 geography,i think new topic kali ni...Settlement...
BLK5 bhs melayu with cgu Suhaili,the one and only cgu who loves to flirt young men. (err???)

uhuh...mesti kerja kuat ni...
1.DIET
2.STUDY

" i know i can :) "

on & off

back again...
for how long ah??
hmm...

Today's the 2nd of Ramadhan and as expected,
ramai datang terawih.
However,celebration this year wasn't that 'live' as to compare dgn previous years punya...
i don't know why...
was it my own self-thinking or semua pun dapat rasa jua?...

Next,
2009 is a bad year for me...
banyak sial thing happened to me,OCCASIONALLY...
*i fucked up my life...twice...by hating my ex tapi inda dapat and seeing my closest friend kahwin (happy for him but at the same time,sedih jua)
*makin basar,mcm2 tia dpintanya perasaan+hati ni...hari2 kan minta belai...(HAHA) and so,i have to jaga my hati dgn banyak2 selawat+zikir2
*my family...if diikutkan hati,mungkin family relation kami semakin tegang...
harap2 inda...
W/pun its a bad year,
ALLAH tu adil kan...
2009...membuka ruang akademikku...
Well so far,aku okay with my study...
And starting now,i've to work harder...AS exam inda lagi lama...
i'll try to get A lah for geography...
hehehe...payah tu yo...
sociology pun...mesti A jua...
and if dapat,GP jua...B kah saja...

Mama once said,"tanamkan cita-cita dihati and jangan fikir yang lain,insyaAllah dapat jua tu nanti."
i really really really want to get that scholarship!! :'(

final exam's coming...
after raya kami exam...
and after final exam,aku sit my AS...
uhh....
honestly,inda ku sabar ni kan exam...
kan tau my result and get promoted untuk upper6 next year...
tapi...when tani inda sabar,we'll get nothing but rugi...(i learn this from his experience)

banyak2 berdoa ramadhan ani...
semua pintu syurga dibuka...
semua doa dikabulkan...
huhuhuhuh...

Oh yeah,
1 more thing...
i was not allowed to date with someone since mama did her responsibility,searching the perfect one for me...
i just hope...mama tau ciri2 yang ku cari...
this heart ache so much...
takut-takut aku bukan yang dicarinya...
tapi i'll try to be isteri yang best...
susah ni woo...
about 5-6 years lagi...
inda lagi lama tu...

LOVE

to be honest, i'm nothing without you...
hari-hari yang dilalui kosong saja...
i miss your jokes...
i miss everything from you...
hari-hari,bangun tidur selalu ku tanya2...
Will u be alright?
Can she treat u well?
Will she loves you like i do?
Can u both be happy?

it is hard to let you go...
i know,i have to move on...
setiap kaki ku melangkah,setiap kali tu jua i'll look back...
searching for you...
and seperti selalu,ur not there...
sedih kan...

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When ur with someone,this heart turns black...
niat hati kan marah that girl tapi diri sedar,
kalau bukan salahme,kalau me layan you macam ia layan you,
me indakan makan hati cani ni kan...
i still love you...



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online msn pun nda lagi siuk...
asal buka msn, baby nada online...
where are you?
sudah jumpa another 'honey' ka?...
i miss you so bad;'(



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*diam*
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There's nothing to say...
Cakap banyak pun can't bring him back...


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perempuan fitrahnya bersifat pemalu & put things to their heart.
cinta sejati perempuan payah kan nampak, i have to agree with this coz ni pun aku alami sendiri.
so guys,when seorang perempuan treat u well,she's the one yang kamu cari.
pilih yang zahiriah cantik pun inda beguna if batin nya nda pernah mengagungkan seorang lelaki yang dicintainya. :)

kalau hati sudah berkata "yes!she's the one..." don't let her go,do whatever it takes...
kalau sudah jodoh,yang dikejar pun indakan lari coz dihatinya pun sudah mengatakan "he's the one"
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